Wednesday, December 28, 2011

remembering our fur baby

we were with our sweet kitty when she took her final breaths. i put my face close to hers, stroked her head and told her how much i loved her. that night all i could think of was what she looked like after her soul left her body and how she seemed to be hurting before we brought her to the animal hospital. these thoughts brought me so much pain that my whole body was sore from crying.

knowing i had to do something before i sunk into a depression, i called my mom. she cried with me and reminded me of the funny things piggy used to do. (my mom and niece called her piggy. she had so many different nicknames.=). i found comfort in talking about her. then i started looking at her pictures and soon i was smiling through my tears. i'm so happy i took so many photos.


john and i cherished each and every moment we had with our fur baby. our friends and family would get a little annoyed with us when we'd cut our visits short to get back home to our cat. we'd miss her when we were away too long and worried that she may be hungry or in need of some love.

when john suggested we watch our videos of her, i hesitated. i thought it would be too painful but instead it had the opposite effect. we laughed and cried watching her during her healthier days. it feels like she's still with us, just in a different, more peaceful form.

as i mentioned before in a little biggie bio, i found biggles (or should i say she found me) on the porch of a friend's house when i was about 17 years old. she was the friendliest cat, coming up to us teens and rubbing against our legs. the boys in the neighborhood were smitten with her and called her mrs. bigglesworth.

she was a chub of a cat, which led us kids to believe she was pregnant. when my dad heard this he let me bring her home. we brought her to the vet and it turned out she wasn't pregnant - but she did have worms! it's funny to think that i loved her so much already that i had no problem picking rice-like worms off her little tush and my bedroom floor. there was nothing i wouldn't do for her.

 biggie and my sister, krista circa 2001

but biggles didn't like me too much in the beginning. in fact, she stayed away from me as much as possible! she would lay on my dad, brother, sister and friends, but not me. i'd say to her, it was me who saved you, you ungrateful little...! she definitely made up for it in her later years, laying with me every chance she got.=)

biggie loved her new home. we had a nice big backyard where she'd roam and play safely. when she wanted to come in she'd hop up on our screen door and meow. once my brother made her a bed out of a box and a blanket and labeled it biggie's bed. to say she was spoiled would be an understatement!

when i moved out i left biggie with my father so she could still enjoy the outdoors. when her kidneys started to fail a little over two years ago and she became very needy, my dad knew it would be best for us to take care of her. john was not happy when i said a cat was coming to live with us, but it was only a matter of days before he fell in love with her, too. 

our home was like a retirement village for her. she got 'round the clock care and attention. she was the queen, which is why we called her ms. madji and the madj (/mahzh/). she'd take little trips outdoors where she'd sunbathe and munch on some grass. her favorite treat was coconut oil and she had her own jar. she played with toys i crocheted for her and had many comfy places to lay.

madj didn't like it when the attention wasn't on her. she'd sit on the computer keyboard when i was typing, break up our scrabble games, and lay on books that i was trying to read. in her early years, she'd walk across the keys when i played the piano and sit on my hands. (ok, maybe she thought i wasn't very good and just wanted me to stop playing.=)

i'm so grateful for the years we had with our sweet madji and all the fond memories we have of her. she was a very special kitty that will always hold a special place in our hearts.


  1. great pictorial and i'm sorry for your loss. for some of us, fur babies are the closest we'll ever get to offspring. As one of those folks, I sympathize and you are in my thoughts.

    miss ya kelli, here's to 2012 and may it bring joy and happiness and newness to you and yours...


  2. Hugs to you. It is so hard to lose a family member, even if he/she has four legs.
    We know they will be with us (usually) a shorter amount of time than humans, but we hold out hope they will live as long as we do.
    Thanks for sharing.

  3. What a beautiful tribute to your beloved Biggles. As one who loves her fur babies so very much (yes, and spoils them too), I know exactly how you feel about the loss of your little one. The loss is heartbreaking, but the memories are oh so precious.

  4. This post is soooooo sweet! I enjoyed reading it very much. Looks like you had great friendship with Biggles. I feel very sorry for your loss. xoxo

  5. My deepest condolences, kelli.
    Losing a beloved pet is such a sad, sad thing.
    Even when they're old and have lived a wonderful life, it's never easy to say goodbye. You're in my thoughts. ~

  6. Kelli, So sorry to hear that you also had lost your dear kitty. She was a beauty. Thanks for commenting on my blog. It's funny how those little fur balls steal our hearts.

  7. I saw your comment on BloomBakeCreate. I'm so sorry for the loss of your furbaby! I love the pic of her on the screen door and cuddled up with the book HUGS

  8. what a beauty, so sorry....big hugs to you kelly, .....thinking of you, wish you loads of love and sparkles for the time ahead xoxoxox

  9. so so sorry for your loss. I love seeing her pictures of her younger, that was one of the things that helped me with my losses too, was focusing on the times they were full of life and young and full of energy. this is a great tribute to her. she was lucky to have you doting on her the past few years. every cat should be so deserving.

  10. this is a very beautiful tribute to the beautiful biggles...again...i am very sorry for your's heart breaking. take care and i wish you all the strength in the world.

  11. Aww! So sweet! And what great memories you shared, even if just a sampling (love the screen door pic). I loved seeing her featured on your blog so I will miss her too. Maybe she's playing with my kitty up in kitty heaven! ;) Cats are so funny though how they just plop down or walk over everything. Love it! Sorry for your loss. She had a blessed life with you and in turn you were blessed. Cherish those memories.

  12. I am so very sorry for your loss but so happy you had such a special kitty for all of those years. And what a lucky kitty to have found you and your family! I loved reading about her and seeing all of your great pictures. She was a beauty! I am happy to know i am not the only one who has, like, 10 names for my special fur baby ....your tribute to Biggles was really special. Thank you for sharing it and writing about it.

  13. thank you nelly, heidi and kae pea!


  14. So sorry for your loss. I know pets can be like children. It breaks one's heart to lose them.

    Thanks for sharing your story with us. I can tell she means the world to you (btw, that picture of her hanging onto the door is priceless).

  15. Kelli,
    I am so sorry about this. I know how it hurts to lose a part of the family. Keep on loving.

  16. I am so sorry for your loss... no matter how many times I've been through it with my pets, its always difficult as they are truly family.

  17. How painful for you to reflect on the life of your beautiful cat. I really enjoyed reading this lovely post about her.
    Peace and Raw Health,


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